Ican'twaitIcan'twaitIcan'twait!!!

Does anyone seriously know what this will mean for me? Does anyone understand!?!

For the first time ever in my whole life, I'll be truly free from this system. For the first fucking time I'll have a holiday where I'm not obliged at all to do anything, where there's nothing to prepare for at the fucking end. And I can even make it not end, if I wanted to. I have control over my life now.

During all the previous "holidays" I didn't enjoy my time at all, there was always a nagging voice somewhere inside my head (darn my head is so big that I can't find it:) telling me to go study or complete homework or read a note. And whenever I feel forced to do something I simply don't do it at all. I can't even force myself to wake up in the morning, I have to look for ways to make it feel like it isn't forced. Blah.

SO anyway. I will finally be FREE after the 22nd. I'll be partially free after this Friday, of course, but who cares about being partial? I'm seriously considering fucking everything and just taking off. I want to travel the world. Who gives a damn about getting a job and gaining experience? If I don't enjoy my time now I never will. And I'm also considering fucking university and just staying at home all day doing stuff. Perhaps even fuck society and withdraw completely.

Heh. The dark side's come out. Be afraid...